Yesterday, I was asked if I was ready.
"For the wedding? or marriage?"
Am I ready?
Are all the wedding preparations ready? Not quite.
Am I ready to have my wedding? YES.
I know sometimes women are more interested in planning a wedding than actually being married. Not the case with me. Don't get me wrong, I want a wedding. I'm excited about my wedding. I've enjoyed all this wedding planning (or most of it). But, that's not what I was longing for, before I got engaged. I want the marriage. I want to "do life" with my best friend.
Am I ready for marriage?
I don't know, I've never been married...
I heard it's similar to "are you ready to have kids?" No one is ever ready for that, apparently.
I would like to think that I'm ready. That I'm mentally and emotionally prepared for what I've heard is the most sanctifying and challenging things someone can go through in life.
Yeah. That sentence just intimidated me a little. How am I supposed to be "ready" for that?
But, this is the next chapter, season, step, etc. that God has called us too. And He doesn't send you into something without equipping you.
I'm not sure how well I will do at fulfilling wife-y duties like
cleaning and cooking dinner. I don't know how good of a mom I will be
whenever that happens.
But, I'm ready to see Aaron on a daily basis, through the good and bad. I'm ready to be frustrated at times, laugh uncontrollably at others, make big decisions, make memories.
I'm ready to be a wife and a best friend, day in and day out. Nervous, but ready.