Monday, January 31, 2011

Day Nineteen.

Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.

Ohhhh. Last year's birthday was magical. By far the best birthday I had, therefore ending my bad birthday streak. :)

It started with a midnight run to Waffle House.
I went to a Beth Moore simulcast, where my friends surprised me with balloons and flowers. 
My roommates decorated my door and bathroom suite with streamers and writing on the mirrors. 
I think I went and ate Thai food for lunch...
Ate at Cheddar's with like nine of my favorite people, that also bought me dessert! 
Then came home and had ice cream oreo cake made by my suitemate :) 

Basically, my birthday consisted of Beth Moore, food and friends.
Really, does it get any better than that? I think not.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Worth the Read.

I document a lot.
I write, design, draw, paint, take pictures. All of them document something.

Today, in college group, we talked about seeking God's will. I feel like that's been on my mind and in my conversations a lot lately. People graduating, people getting engaged, new jobs, friendships, on and on. And for as much as we talk about it, we only pray about it half the time - I'm included in this.

Twice in one week, Jeremiah 29 has been brought up. Verse 13 says, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

Do we, or do I, know what it means to really search for Him with all that we are? We wonder what we're supposed to do, and go on with our day expecting a flashing sign to appear on the sidewalk - but praying, reading the Word, fasting and seeking counsel are usually not on the radar. That's why it's not finding the time to spend time with God, but convincing ourselves that it is important enough to set aside the time.

Part of asking is a willingness to go. But we can't pray for Him to send us where we want to go, our prayers bend our desires to His will. We can't be like little kids, running around yelling, "mine!" or "I don't wanna!" But how often do we do that? How often do we create ways to change or bend His will?

God has called us to be salt and light, but too often we don't see the glory and satisfaction of doing what God has called us to do. The world wants people of authentic change. Not just the only difference being which building we go to on Sundays.

God is writing each of our stories. Don't take the pen from Him.
But make sure to put words on the page that people would want to read.

No matter what stage we are in in life, there's something we can each do. Doesn't matter if we're just students, or live in a small town, or single. We are called to live a life worthy of our calling.

If your last week was a chapter in a book, would it be worth documenting?

Day Eighteen.

Post one confession/secret.

When I was diagnosed, I couldn't say glucometer (say that word around people who don't know much bout diabetes and it'll freak them out), so my parents nicknamed it George. My family continued to call it George for the next.... 12-15 years. No joke. 

Thanks to a cheesy youtube video and my sister, I have now named my insulin pump. I mean really, if I'm going to name a machine that I interact with daily... I think a machine I'm attached to 24/7 deserves a name. Cue Milly.

She is almost two and a half years old. We have a love-hate relationship, I might add. 

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Day Seventeen.

Bullet your day.

Woke up 8:45.
Ate breakfast, drank coffee.
Read the Word. 
Organized pictures.
Ate at Thai Kitchen (for the first time) with Danae.
Photo adventure with Becky.
Dinner at mi casa with Becky.
Coffee date with Becky and Tiffany.
Currently on the phone with Aaron. :)

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day Sixteen.

Upload a picture of your room and talk about your room.

My room is not clean, and always looks weird in pictures... so you don't get a picture today. 

My room, is full of memories. I'm sure that's what everyone thinks or says about their room, but truly, it is. 

I have my painting from high school. 
My desk that is a hand-me-down. 
My dresser from grade school (that I didn't use between then and now).
My picture board that I've had forever.
My picture of Leydi. 
My written-on-gift-bags from Ellie. 

There's more, uninteresting things. I look around not only my room but my apartment and see things of my own actual possession, things given to me or passed down, things I bought at a garage sale. I look at some of my hand-me-downs and remember old memories of home or my grandparents. 

I see things of mine that I've had since grade school and wonder how they've managed to last. I look at them and see all the things that they've been a part of in my life. These mere objects survive moves, rearranging, being knocked over... just like me. I survive all these things with the help of God.

"He alone is my rock and salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken." - Psalm 62:6

Thursday, January 27, 2011


this is so beautiful.
 "What kind of guy would I be if I walked out when she needed me most?"

Day Fifteen.

Write about something you worry about a lot.

In the words of my boyfriend, I worry too much. I think there are things I worry about, and things I just ...think about a lot.

Right now, my biggest worry is this semester. 15 hours and two part-time jobs. Not to mention the extra activities, church and what little social life I do have. Almost done with my first week and I'm already feeling a little overwhelmed. 

Outside of this semester...
I'm not really worried about my future, as much as my professors try to scare me about that. Read the verse just this morning that reminded me God has a plan for my future. It may not be what I was expecting, but it's probably better than that anyways. 

Last night at Bible study, we talked about surrendering everything to the Lord. All of our hopes, dreams, fears, free time, school, relationships, all of it. Yes, the Lord was faithful to open my eyes to a few things I've been holding onto. Letting go is so much easier said than done, but it's truly the best step of obedience. 

I am one of those few that never changed her major during college. Yes, I have known for six years what I wanted to do. I remember two distinct times that I doubted and considered running another way, but decided to hang on a little bit longer - and the Lord affirms this is what I'm supposed to do more and more. When I think about the fact that I've known this for six years, I realize that God has something really good planned. And that makes me more excited than I can almost describe. 

That being said, I have no idea where I'm going or what's next. There's a lot of things I want after I graduate, but I wonder how many of them are just what I want, and how many are what He wants. I think more than the actual plans, I'm worried that I will act on my own desires, and not the Lord's. I'm worried I'll be too afraid or unwilling, or that I'll want something out of my desire before I follow Him. But, that's not what the Bible says; it doesn't say "if we feel like it," or "after.." but that we wholeheartedly and obediently follow Him. 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day Fourteen

Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.

Book: besides the Bible, probably Redeeming Love.
Movie: I don't know if I can pick just one, it's a tie between Now and Then, and My Sister's Keeper!
Favorite band: Needtobreathe or Tenth Avenue North
Favorite food: peanut butter, hands down.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Day Thirteen.

What are your plans for the future? Far and near. 

First of all, this could change at any given moment. I don't control my days, the Lord does.

But, I do have some plans. Georgia in February, possibly skiing in Santa Fe. Beach Reach and a design conference in March. No April plans besides turning 21. Then, headed back to New Mexico for the summer!

As for far away plans.... that's up the Lord.
I'm in school for two more semesters after this one, and then I'm not sure after that. Probably (or hopefully) get a job somewhere. There's a few cities I'm leaning towards (Nashville, Tampa, Atlanta...) but, that wasn't what I thought a year ago, so who knows where I'll be a year from now :) At some point get married, and probably do missions in one way or another.

I've realized over the past several months how greater the Lord's plans are, and how exciting it is to follow Him. Yes, there will be rough parts and probably some stress... but it's amazing how much He works everything out.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Day Twelve.

Write about the best day of your life.

Best day? Out of my twenty years, I'm supposed to pick one?

Three-way tie between:

High school graduation,
being baptized last year,
and any given day of this past summer.

If you really think about it, every day should be the best day. Do you ever think about the fact that God allows you to wake up in the morning? Or that He allowed you to breathe that breath you just let out? Shouldn't everyday be the best day, or at least shouldn't we appreciate each day, just because we're alive and our Creator is letting us?

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Day Eleven.

What's the meanest thing someone has ever said to you?

I try to block those things out. Ha.
But, I guess recently it would be my professor saying that I am doing well (overall, as a student) but not as good as he thought I would (when he met me freshman year). I know it was probably supposed to "motivate" me or something, and it partially did, but was also kind of a downer.

That's really not the meanest thing someone has ever said to me, but I really don't want to think back and try and remember that.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day Ten.

What's the nicest thing someone has ever said to you?

I don't remember any exact comment, but of the few compliments I have been given... I definitely appreciate the art compliments the most. Although I try not to take too much offense when someone doesn't like my art, it means the world to me when people love something I've made. Whenever people come to my apartment for the first time, my 5x5 tree painting is the first thing they comment on and/or notice. Parents talk about their kids being their pride and joy, well... for the time being, my art is my kid. :)

(Painting above is one of my favorites from last semester.)

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day Nine.

How do you feel today?

Okay, I slightly laughed at this one. It just reminds me of psychiatrists saying, "and how does that make you feel?" Though, a) there's nothing wrong with psychiatrists, and b) I wonder if they actually do say that. 

Anyways, a day that starts with that sunrise can only be good. 

Photo adventure.
Fun and easy shift at work.
Wal-mart adventure.
Two hour phone conversation. 

Really? I hope I can remember this day in a few weeks or months when I'm having a bad day, and remember that it's always the little things that really matter.


So, a friend showed me this website.


Basically, you get coupons/discounts sent to your e-mail.
For every friend you refer, that buy something... you EARN money.

I just signed up so I haven't gotten the daily coupon sent to me yet, but hey... worth a shot, right?

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Day Seven.

Upload a recent picture of you.

well, there you go.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day Six.

When was the last time you cried? 

A few weeks ago at Passion. It's amazing the emotions you go through when worshipping with thousands of other believers. Not to mention the emotions when the Lord is moving in your heart. Although it can be overwhelming sometimes, it's something I would never trade. 

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Day Five.

Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.

Well, that was a long time period. 

And, I really believe it was all because God was trying to get my attention. 

Start junior year of high school, end with end of freshman year in college. 
Throw in losing friends, a party spell, some depression, some guys who were jerks, mass confusion. 

See what I mean? The next year wasn't too great either, but it was a lot of God refining me and I managed to make it through because I actually had my relationship with the Lord. 

Now, I don't mean to make it sound like everything will be or is easy and great when you're walking with the Lord. There's sacrifice, conviction, wrestling in prayer... but it's all worth it. The joy and peace that comes with it surpasses everything.

(side note: the painting was done my freshman year, before I took a painting class, and during a very hard time. but it's my favorite, and a lot of people love it as well.)

Monday, January 17, 2011

Day Four.

Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.

That would be right now. :) 

Don't get me wrong, there are some bad days or happenings, but I don't know if I've ever been so happy with life before. 

The Lord is amazing. I start everyday with reading His Word. I used to follow a plan (I read the Bible in a year!) but now I just read wherever He leads me. Today it was about how He rejoices over us and delights in us. Think about it - the Creator of the universe delights in you. I firmly believe that your outlook on life is better when you relationship with Christ is stronger.

So, besides that... I love my major, which causes me to love my job. I also love when people ask me to design them t-shirts and flyers and blog headers... it never bothers me to do that stuff, because I love it. 

God has also blessed me with putting some amazing people in my life. My family, my boyfriend, my co-workers, my closest friends, my BSM family, etc. 

Sunday, January 16, 2011


So, I went back and read some articles about dating I read this summer. Many of you were not reading this blog, or maybe missed it at the time.

My favorite line of this article:
"Marry a vibrant growing Christian woman, and you have Christ's promise that he is committed to making her more and more beautiful, spiritually beautiful, with every passing day."

I love it, I love how much Christ loves us to continually grow and change us. I love that the focus of this article, and of the related articles (they're at the bottom of the article) is about not finding the right one, but BEING the right one. Even as Christians, we can get caught up in this selfish thinking.

Day Three.

If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do? 

What wouldn't I want to do?

I would do random things like,
go eat a love it size at Coldstone...
donate money to places...
buy those too-expensive-gifts for people I want to buy...

and I would also probably fly to D.C.
with a stop in Georgia,
and a passenger from Cali.

I would want to go see certain people and apologize,
and remind them that both I and Jesus love them.

I would write letters.

Whatever I did, none of it would be hateful.. but all in love.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

In case you missed it...

I love this video.

I feel like this is a perfect representation of what a Christ-centered relationship and marriage looks like. I especially love the vows and what the preacher says. Oh, and the dancing.. but that's not as important.

I also love that he writes her a letter... I've heard of couples do that - so cute. I love that the emphasis of the wedding (and the video) is how sacred of a day it is, and how sacred marriage is - something I think people miss or forget.

I know I'm going to cry during my vows. I will probably cry at many points during the ceremony.

Brittany + Paul's Short Wedding Film - Dallas, TX from Joe Simon Films on Vimeo.

Day Two.

Write about the best friends you've had over the years. 

I could probably write a novel over this. I realized this past year how much I over-use that term.
So I'll just narrow it down.

First and foremost, if you've been reading this very long or know me at all, you know my very best friend and other half of my brain is Ellie. I've been asked numerous times how we can possibly be "best friends" when we've never spent more than seven consecutive days together. God, that's how. Plus e-mails, phone calls, BBM, skype, pen pal letters, Facebook, etc. This girl not only gives great advice, great hugs, and can always cheer me up, but also loves me for me.

If I look back to high school, I would definitely have to say Nicolle. She was a foreign exchange student, so we had less than a year together. I still remember at her welcoming party, her walking up to me and saying, "would you like to be my friend?" I believe God sent me her for many reasons. Nicolle opened my eyes to what a real friend actually looks like, she understood me, and she kind of straightened me back out from my crazy self.

This blog would not be complete without mentioning Taylor. We are almost one in the same, which is why we've learned we can't spend every waking moment together. Although all of my friends have some commonalities, (is that a word?) I feel like each have their special flair. It may be obvious, but Taylor is the girl I send cool type posters to, text about Hoblob specials, and skype with just to get a mini-critique on a project. We also have weird quirks: hand sign, Taco Bell obsession, love of Dallas, twss jokes, etc.

And last but not least (I'm capping it at four), Kelli. You might've thought it was weird when I became best friends with someone after a year. Well, it gets better. Three months. Except, in Glorieta time that would probably equal a year. Looking back, I kind of pulled a Nicolle on her; I remember sitting at FD and saying, "Kelli, tell me about yourself. Tell me your testimony." When that's one of your first conversations, you know you'll be great friends. Interventions factor in as well.

There have been and are many more; Aaron, Angela, Allison, Becky, the rest of fab five, high school friends, and of course those that I no longer talk to for whatever reason.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Day One.

30-day Challenge.
I'm not sure if I'll stick with this. And I'm not really sure why I'm doing it to begin with, it almost reminds me of something I used to do on Myspace (ew). But, there's a question for everyday....answer it, etc. Except I'm going to add a picture with it (which requires a picture a day).

Post 15 facts about yourself. 

1. My heart has completely changed over the last year. My heart, my desires, my dreams. All of it because of God.
2. I'm a designer, but painting is one of my favorite things to do. I really hope my house someday has an art room I can paint in (yes, like in The Notebook).
3. I listen to a lot of music on repeat. One week, I listened to Gungor every morning for an hour.
4. My peanut butter obsession is a little extreme.
5. I hate taking out the trash. Future husband and kids will do that.
6. I have a weird fascination with old things. i.e. - I have a non-working typewriter inside of a worn suitcase displayed in my living room.
7. I wish I could not work, but stay at home to paint and go running.
8. I kind of want to live in Europe.
9. I'm a total bookworm.
10. I have the weirdest dreams, all the time. i.e. - the other day I dreamt of the end times. Some guy's face fell off, and he was wearing a blue plaid-type shirt.
11. I've had diabetes for 17 years. Totally embrace it. Except lately I've had the grown-up realization that it's gonna kick my life in the butt if I don't get it under control.
12. I love singing, it's almost impossible for me to listen to music without singing.
13. Three of the people I love the most live in all different parts of the country (or world).
14. I miss a lot of movies. 300, Matrix, MIB, Social Network, and hundreds of others - never seen.
15. I have a huge heart for women's and collegiate ministry. I don't know where God's leading me with that... but we shall find out in the next few years. :)

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

101 Update.

Trying to catch up...

#14 -- Go to a spa for a massage.  It wasn't a spa, but I did get a one-hour massage. SO good.

#52 -- Road trip somewhere far away.  It doesn't get much further than driving from Missouri (or if you want to get real technical, Texas) to Georgia! Counting from Texas it was 23 hours!... but the main stretch was only 12. Totally worth it though!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Grown-up Talk.

Today is my parents 30th wedding anniversary.

That's amazing, especially in today's world with our high divorce rate.
They themselves are amazing.
I want a love like theirs.

A love like theirs, but stronger.
A love like theirs, but pointed more towards Christ.

I feel like this last year, I've actually started forming opinions and dreams of what I really want to be and do after college. Before, it was a generalized thought. Now I find myself looking up jobs, thinking about marriage, wondering where I'll live... and then boring stuff, like what about insurance and buying a car.

And the beautiful part,

is God already has it all planned.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Passion Songs!

So glad that people somehow managed to get a few Passion 2011 songs onto Youtube! Not the same as the CD, but it'll suffice until then. Enjoy :)

All to Us (favorite!)

We Are Here For You

Spirit Fall

All My Fountains

We Welcome You with Praise

Lord, I Need You (another favorite)

God of This City (with Fernandinho)

Set Free

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Upside Down.

I promise I wasn't kidnapped. Christmas break usually consists of me running around like a crazy person, most of it in areas without cell service and little to no computer. I went three weeks without my Mac, and a week without any computer. Those statements in themselves sound ridiculous, and actually don't even really bother me.... I'm not really sure why I typed them actually.

I feel like the next two weeks will be spent discussing my break, what all I did, how it went, blah blah blah.  I'm not even sure what to say or where to begin.

I saw a lot of family for the first time in a year.
I spent 40+ hours in the car.
I thought about my future.
I stood amazed as the Lord changed my heart.
I saw my boyfriend for the first time in almost five months.
I traveled through five states in one day.

The largest part, as in influence, of my break was spent in Atlanta. Passion 2011. Event, movement, whatever you want to call it. It's a life-rocking, bring-you-to-your-knees kind of thing. During it all, a thought crossed my mind: why do we have to have these huge conferences to be so convicted, to wake up, or to get back in line? We shouldn't. God still uses them though.

These past six months, the Lord has been reminding me so often about the sweet, glorious freedom I have in Him. Halfway through the semester, the Lord began opening my hear to missions. It was a slow process of my reluctance, but it became more and more obvious that my measly, little plans were going to be turned upside down.

If you go here, you will see all the lives that will be changed and ways God will be glorified because of students at Passion. Last year, sadly, all I did was take towels and socks. This year, I considered giving to every cause. I helped send a New Testament to people in Colombia. We were allowed to highlight verses (they were in Spanish, mind you) for whoever received it and write a note or prayer in it. It hit me, as I was trying to decipher which book I was in, that these people have never read the Word. I thought about how often I want to just sit and meditate on His word, and it broke my heart that someone wouldn't be able to experience the Word if it weren't for me.

The Lord also led me to sponsor a little Bolivian girl, Leydi. (Not entirely sure how it's pronounced, but I'm calling her "lady"...) I had been considering it for months, and after some of the messages I had heard the few days before, I realized how comfortable I live and how well I have it. I realized how little I sacrifice, and I wanted to not just give once to a greater good... but specifically help one child. I think one of the biggest things my heart desires for her, is to experience and know not only Christ and His love, but the freedom in Him.

I wish everyone could've heard the messages that were spoken last week, and just see how the Lord used them in people's lives. Three main points stuck out to me throughout the conference.

1. The people in China are living their faith like we should. They think everyone is persecuted for believing in Christ. Running and hiding from police is normal. People don't just call themselves Christians, because when you say you're a Christian in China, you sacrifice everything.

2. Do people at the end of the day know that you're favorite name is Jesus? Is it evident at all times who controls your life and who you are in love with (Christ)? Not just most days, or when you're with certain people, or at certain places... but all the time.

3. Everyone wants you to carry their name or to represent them; singers, actors, brand names, businesses, etc. Mac, Blackberry, Canon, JCPenny's... all names I'm surrounded by right now. But, the only name we should really concern ourselves with and carry is Jesus. Go where the Lord has given you a passion for, but carry His name. Do we do things for ourselves, or for Him? He should be at the bottom (the source) of our joy, not us.

One of my favorite parts about break was seeing how the Lord has been working in people's lives around me. Changes that can only be done by Him. It's beautiful. I can only hope that how He has been working in my life and how He opened my eyes and heart this past week is evident as well.