Wednesday, September 9, 2009

"...You hold my world in Your hands."

Wow. How long has it been since I've updated? I'm slacking, I know. But, I think the world will forgive me...

I'm in the third week of my second year at college. If I could sum it up in one phrase it would be: a complete 180 from last year. Things seem/are so different from this time a year ago, I can't even remember it. What was I doing last year this time? Why? Probably some of the time I needed a slap in the face. Haha... okay, have I ever said I really am my own worst critic?

Anyways... although it has been a rough start, things are good. Contradictory statement, I know, but that seems to be the story of my life right now.

So far classes are not killing me, besides my poli-sci teacher who is approximately 82 years old. I would go in greater detail describing him, but it's funnier if you see my impersonation. Though today, my dad did an electronic impersonation via e-mail: ";/" which is so accurate. Haha. I love my English professor, she keeps it so interesting... and I've always been a fan of reading and whatnot, so it's not hard for me to enjoy the class to start with. My art classes have been slow starting, but the computer classes are becoming increasingly more interesting and I love it! Life drawing... in a word: interesting. Last year, I began doubting my choice in major, but it's only the third week of school and I already feel like God is reaffirming my choice, and this is what I'm supposed to be doing.

I'm more involved in the BSM this year, which is so... good/fun/fulfilling/interesting. When I say I'm more involved, I mean... last year: went to some free lunches; this year: holding my own Bible study monday night, Leadership lunch Tuesday, free lunch Wednesday, Thursday night worship/late night... and any random activities they hold. I wish I had done this, or half of these, last year. I've met so many more people and it's so fulfilling to be serving the Lord in some way almost everyday. I mean.. we should every day, and I do in one way or another... I guess I mean, just working on showing more people Christ's love.

I lost my job the week before classes started. Mmmm, yeah. Great timing, God. Thanks... like that didn't just add so much stress to start off my school year. But, I knew He had a plan, and it wasn't for me to work there. Today, I had a job interview, for what could possibly be the best job ever (to me at least). It is: working in the bookstore (which I've always kinda wanted to do), mostly designing flyers and doing advertising/marketing stuff, helping with keep the website up-to-date... and then like if they need me to unload the truck, work the register, stock... etc. It sounded promising, but tomorrow/Friday I should find out for sure. In the words of my dad, "either you got the job or you didn't, but there's no sense in worrying tonight.. it's in God's hands right now."

One of my favorite songs right now, because it just seems to ring so true in my life right now is "You Carried Me" by Building 429; it says, "And I stand only because You've given me grace to walk, only because You carried me..." Not that I got injured or anything of that sort... but it's been a rough start (almost like, the rough start that most people have their first year of college, except mine was delayed) and if weren't for my reliance on God, I would be in a worse disposition. What's been the hardest, were things I wasn't expecting (which makes sense)... I don't know what's harder: having a fall out with friends, or growing in your relationship with Christ while your friends aren't. I've been on the other side, and I know being pushed can just make it worse... and I almost feel helpless, even though I know the Lord is working in their hearts when I can't.

I'm a firm believer in standing up for what I believe in, and sometimes that means making someone else unhappy. Right now, I'm trying to balance everything and get in a routine. Everyday I remind myself I need to be more thankful for everything God has blessed me with :)

1 comment:

  1. odd statement: out of all my friends, you are one of the best at describing your life. lol. Its just so interesting to read [in a non-stalkerish/awkward way] lol.

    I will continue to pray for you [especially about your friends because I know its hard!] and I really hope you get that job! It sounds amazing. :)