I am torn.
Torn between joy and lethargic.
Torn between feeling close to and far away from God.
God is not a feeling.
and, His joy surpasses all else.
I don't know why I have these conflicting emotions,
But, I am full of joy and the happiest I've been since I came to college. Actually, maybe even since early high school. God continues to bless me and work everything out (as usual).
It's a weird feeling being happy on a bad day. But I like it.