Well, here I am.
I have not blogged in so long, which is very surprising because I have so much going on - in my head, and in life. Which is also... why I haven't blogged, haha. Crazy busy.
God is doing so much in my friends and in me... and so often in the last month I've thought, oh.. I should blog that! because it's been great (and, at times, rough) and I just want to remember those times. (Note to self: blog more.)
Tonight our Bible study took a "study break" since it's midterms... to eat pizza and watch the "Fruitcake and ice cream" video. In short, it's a story about a two girls who room together. One is a believer, one is not. The believer (fruitcake) prays for and pours into the non-believer, and after two weeks - TWO weeks - she accepts Christ into her life. Unfortunately, only three months later, she dies in a car accident.
This story started so many thoughts in my head, I can't think straight.
First, the verse "Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience." came to mind. As Christians, we should pour into others and let His light shine thru us -- which comes thru those things. But, I feel as though I've fallen short in some of those.
The story was really ...inspiring. I mean, only two weeks! And she was so far on the other end from believing. No one is too far for God, and we have to remember that and that we can only lead people to Christ, not save them.
But, at the same time... this story made me feel a bit discouraged. Why can't that two-week transformation happen here? (And of course, I answer myself - it's God's timing, not our own.)
I am so torn.... Love and let go, or serve fruitcake?